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A new pathway

From owning one Bible in 2003, when we came to faith in Our Lord Jesus Christ, we soon had almost every version in our home. Julius picked up the NLT and used it as his quiet time study. Silly me - I would tease him and say that I preferred the NASB because the language was better! I don't think that I realised or appreciated the fact that he was doing the most important thing of actually waking up at 5:30am daily and reading God's Word - never mind which version.
So now I am reading his NLT and I find it so comforting. God allowed Julius to leave me so many verses carefully underlined with his precious mechanical pencil (which no one was allowed to use, because we would be sure to misplace it!). Julius was so well organised.

A couple of days after we lost Julius, God took me to Psalm 77. The psalmist's anguish was so akin to mine. I looked at the end of the psalm at the verses that Julius had underlined:
Your road led through the sea,
your pathway through the mighty waters—
a pathway no one knew was there! Ps 77:19
It even has an exclamation mark at the end. You know how you sense when God is speaking to you so personally? I knew He was saying this to me directly. My Loving Heavenly Father is going to make a pathway through the mighty raging waters that I find myself in, a pathway that no one knows even exists. One that I cannot see, but I trust by faith that He will lead me through it.

Dear Heavenly Father I thank you for never letting go of me. I trust you when it is hardest to trust. With my physical eyes, I see only darkness, loneliness and sorrow. But You give me hope. Your Word is true and You are Sovereign. I thank You Lord for comforting me and speaking to me even before my requests are out of my mouth. Like the Psalmist I wish and long for the days of old and I find it hard to see a future but Lord I am making a choice to press on. With the apostle Paul I pray:
 Forgetting the past and looking forward to what lies ahead, 14 I press on to reach the end of the race and receive the heavenly prize for which God, through Christ Jesus, is calling us...
Phil 3:13-14

Dear reader, are you going through a trial just now? Hold on to His promises, know that He knows, He watches, He cares. Persevere in Him and your rewards will be sweet, even now. Trust Him with all your heart. He will not fail.

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