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As I remember the past, I choose to believe for the future

Today is Deepika's grad ceremony. Another first without Julius. He was so excited - had already taken a vacation day for the occasion. We were going to celebrate. His joy was so childlike and infectious. So "proud" of his girls and what God had done in their lives.
I am pondering on our journey that started many years ago watching God work in our little Dipsy's life.
A scrawny little baby girl whom Julius and I brought home. We watched as God took a physically weak child and moulded her to be who she is today. He took her from strength to strength and did the impossible -according to Dr's predictions almost not born because of a bad  pregnancy, healing from serious illness, lost on a lake in Columbia just 2 years ago...and most of all He brought her to a saving faith in Jesus.
We marvelled at what God did that we never could accomplish. Four years ago we went to Mac for an open house and knew that this was where God was leading her to- The Math and Stats program. Oh what a glorious ride as we watched God stretch and strengthen her. I thank you Lord for the joy that you gave me to share these years with Julius and how you enabled us to walk hand in hand, heads held high always looking to You.You never let us down.
Thank you that I had those wonderful years with Julius. Moving the girls in and out of University residences and homes. Never tiring of dropping, picking, advising, protecting. Always available to chat, encouraging text messages, emails. Vulnerable and transparent - never pretending that he had it all together.
I mourn not just him - but so many things about him. His companionship, his wisdom, his childlike joy in the simple things of life, his leadership - we were on time to events because of him! His kindness, his skills, his willingness to travel off the beaten road with me, his commitment to seeking the Lord and not to fear man.
I thank you Lord for what you made Julius to be. Every good and perfect gift comes from you and I mourn the good that you formed and shaped in him.
We will celebrate and rejoice today for what God has done and rejoice in His good work today for He is worthy to be praised and acknowledged.
Your Word to me today: John 14:1 Let not your hearts be troubled. Believe in God;  believe also in me.
Yes Lord I choose to believe. I choose to trust You when it is hardest to trust. You are Worthy and I will sing of your praises even today.

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