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Been a while...

Yes it's been a while...
Have not been able to come to My Garden because it seemed like I had nothing blooming just now...
Seemed like the journey got darker, lonelier, harder...
Unmet expectations and a sense of entitlement in my heart...
Looking for friendships and support in the wrong places...
Having the theology in my head and not my heart...
Reading the Word and not totally believing it...
My mind filling up with hurts...
...and my never ending To Do List ( I have a book of lists now!)

Oh how grateful I am for the love of my Savior that never gives  up on me.
That He promises that He will be with me "always,to the end of the age." Matt 28:20

So grateful that He never tires of my questions.
How long, O Lord? Will you forget me forever? How long will you hide your face from me?
How long must I take counsel in my soul and have sorrow in my heart all the day?
How long shall my enemy be exalted over me? Psalm 13:1-2

Don't you love the psalms? The authors said it like it is. No fear of being politically incorrect.
They did not spare God the questions and the fact the God has kept these for us, tells me that He is OK with my questions. He actually welcomes them. I have only to read Job to see how God listened to all his rantings. However like Job I may never have the answer to so many of my questions, but in His Son Jesus Christ He has given me all that I need to wake up and face a new day.

Come to me, all who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you, and learn from me, for I am gentle and lowly in heart, and you will find rest for your souls.  For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light.” Matthew 11:28-30

“I am the bread of life; whoever comes to me shall not hunger, and whoever believes in me shall never thirst. John 6:35

“If anyone thirsts, let him come to me and drink." John 7:37

And so I am committing to make the journey back and abide in the Vine and ask Him to bear fruit in my Garden. 
Abide in me, and I in you. As the branch cannot bear fruit by itself, unless it abides in the vine, neither can you, unless you abide in me. John 15:4

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